sometimes when i have "one of those days" i want to vent to your dad about it and just be "blah" for a few days. unfortunately this does not help me! what helps? well, going to God in prayer and asking for wisdom; getting perspective from His Word; regrouping and planning a course of action; exercising to clear my head. things like this are more helpful.
of course part of being a team is talking to each other when there is an issue. but the challenge of being a mom at times is that i am also a wife. i want our home to be a place of peace and have a positive attitude when my husband is at home. he is at work being stretched significantly. i want him to look forward to being home and enjoy being here as much as possible. of course things are not perfect. but although i may feel like telling him EVERYTHING, sometimes I need to tell EVERYTHING to God and then decide what I really need to tell my husband. Not to deceive him, but to not use him as a mere sounding board. especially when i have tried this before, and it really doesn't help all that much.
Friday, April 15, 2011
Thursday, April 14, 2011
there will be days like this
sometimes i wonder what i got myself into. people in the church would talk to me about the blessing of children... which of course is true. but it is a challenge as well... a journey of sanctification. this i did not realize.
going on 10 months of sleepless nights... and when you don't eat well either... this is hard. especially when the doctor tells me you need to eat more. how do i make you eat, charlotte?
then henry is toilet-training. he has been screaming all morning about jelly beans. he doesn't care about staying dry. it is all about the candy. so much so that he has climbed up to the counter to retrieve it and eat a good portion (along with oliver) when i am busy with you. the first time oliver lied about it. the second time he smiled and admitted it.
for some reason, discipline is ineffective in the face of sugar. self control is lacking more than ever!
yes, i have been losing my patience. i wonder if i am cut out to be a mom. i feel like my kids don't listen to me even though i strive to be consistent and caring in my discipline.
eventually i lose it.
sure, there will be days like this. but with God's help, i know they can be less and less. i know that if i strive to thrive, i will do much better than survive this journey. i will enjoy it. and i will grow. now that sounds good.
going on 10 months of sleepless nights... and when you don't eat well either... this is hard. especially when the doctor tells me you need to eat more. how do i make you eat, charlotte?
then henry is toilet-training. he has been screaming all morning about jelly beans. he doesn't care about staying dry. it is all about the candy. so much so that he has climbed up to the counter to retrieve it and eat a good portion (along with oliver) when i am busy with you. the first time oliver lied about it. the second time he smiled and admitted it.
for some reason, discipline is ineffective in the face of sugar. self control is lacking more than ever!
yes, i have been losing my patience. i wonder if i am cut out to be a mom. i feel like my kids don't listen to me even though i strive to be consistent and caring in my discipline.
eventually i lose it.
sure, there will be days like this. but with God's help, i know they can be less and less. i know that if i strive to thrive, i will do much better than survive this journey. i will enjoy it. and i will grow. now that sounds good.
to start
for a while now i have wanted to start a blog to record thoughts on life specifically for my daughter, Charlotte.
since the blog title For Charlotte was already taken, i came up with Surviving Today, Thriving Tomorrow. it fits. i will explain later.
of course i value my sons very much (and they are welcome to read), but after having a daughter was when i thought to do more writing. there are often times during the day when i think "wow, i did not know this." or "wish someone had prepared me for this." also, books have given me insight that i wish i had 10 years ago. i will summarize some of those here.
sure, some things are learned as they are experienced; but i figure i can still give a "heads up." ideally i will teach you as you grow up, but life has a way of going by rather quickly. this may be of interest when you are in college and ready to embark on your own journey.
being a mother is a blessing. a blessing not all have. it is also a special assignment, a time for discipleship. this is part of that attempt: to share with you what i have learned thus far.
i love you Charlotte Grace.
since the blog title For Charlotte was already taken, i came up with Surviving Today, Thriving Tomorrow. it fits. i will explain later.
of course i value my sons very much (and they are welcome to read), but after having a daughter was when i thought to do more writing. there are often times during the day when i think "wow, i did not know this." or "wish someone had prepared me for this." also, books have given me insight that i wish i had 10 years ago. i will summarize some of those here.
sure, some things are learned as they are experienced; but i figure i can still give a "heads up." ideally i will teach you as you grow up, but life has a way of going by rather quickly. this may be of interest when you are in college and ready to embark on your own journey.
being a mother is a blessing. a blessing not all have. it is also a special assignment, a time for discipleship. this is part of that attempt: to share with you what i have learned thus far.
i love you Charlotte Grace.
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